I feel like giving up

Meh, had a rear end accident yesterday before work. It was my fault first of all..but the stopped well after the light doing a right hand turn. That was where the confusion was for me. I was checking traffic from the left. He passed the intersection and was halfway into the street he was merging onto. Stupid drivers dunno. I can't blame him fully since I should have seen him stop. I was busy looking for traffic though. 


So I spend about an hour at work, I was stewing over my car damage. I was just so depressed I could not concentrate on my job. So I left. They will take 10 hours of UPT (Unpaid Time). I still have a bank of 14 hours. That is not super bad. As long as I don't go negitive with my UPT I still will have a job. 


I got home after an hour of work. I told my parents I was not feeling well. I went to bed. I have one more day to goto work. I am deciding right now what to do. I could take PTO (Paid Time Off) for today. Then I will have my normal weekend to maybe get an estimate on the car. 


My dad technically owns the car. So not sure how he wants to handle the damage. The guy I hit had no real damage. His bumper was already all jacked up. He said there was no reason for a police report. So I technically don't have to involve my insurence agency. I would like to avoid any addtional rate increases. But I doubt I have the money right now for a proper repair. 


I will wait till my dad wakes up and decide. I really dont feel like going into work today. I am so tired. Physically and mentally. I hate that place. I feel like giving up.

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DOS2
DOS2

Don't give up, you can do what it takes to get to the next step in your life. while you are filling the day with exercise that you need to feed your physical well being and helping your mental and financial outlook, I think it is easier to get a job that you want if you are working then if you sitting around slipping into depression. Cars will come and go, mental health has to be maintained.
arfie
arfie

Justifying that desire to just give up is one of my personal specialties. It is the specialty which has given me countless unfinished projects, fractured career paths, broken friendships, etc., etc. No matter which path I choose, I seem to find things to hate about the path I am on and build that hate into yet another flight to anywhere but here. Somehow the flight always seems to land where I've always been.

Wish I had easy answers for both of us. Oh, for the love of balance. . .
RealHeart
RealHeart

Don't give up Chris. When I feel that way I reach way down in my gut to pull out some strength. Hugs.
chris138
chris138

Thanks guys for your input. I took today off (10 hours of PTO). I will go back Sunday evening. I need the money. Ugh.
chris138
chris138

I will think of it as 10 hours of exercise. Nothing more, nothing less. Maybe if I ate correctly I could get more healthy.