hmm

I find it funny how everything seems to surface at the same time. Like about a month ago i start bingeing and purging again, and that was enough at the time. every once in a while i'll eat myself sick and then make myself sick. Its not the best feeling in the world but it hurts and thats what i want. pain. then i meet fucking adam and everything goes to hell. now i'm smoking cigarettes and more and more pot. feeling like crap about myself and cutting. all the progess i thought i had made was just a fucking joke. I've been wanting tocut since i quit. I;m tired of life. I feel so fucking done with everything. no body fucking cares about me. my own family can't even tel anything is wrong. ive become the ultimate liar.