Feeling Weird

I've been feeling really out of it lately. I thought, with all this time off due to my surgery, that I would be able to take care of some household cleaning and weeding out. But I'm unmotivated. Even worse, I'm constantly irritated with my daughter, Courtney(22) and my step-son, Jamie (20). More so with Jamie though. You see, Courtney moved back in Dec, She seems to be working hard to get herself on track and is motivated to move back out asap. But Jamie, who moved in the end of Jan., seems content to work a minimum of hours and is spending too much time on video games and watching TV. I now understand why his mom kicked him out and, quite frankly, I'm ready to kick him out too. Lisa, his mom, and my husband James have a hard history. Since their divorce though, Lisa has done all she could to make James pay the maximum amount of child support, while making sure he got the minimum amount of time with his kids. She remarried, and her husband looked for jobs that would take them to other states. First they moved up to the north east... then they moved down to Albuquerque. James was lucky if he got to see his kids twice a year. She has been selfish in everything she's done regarding James and his kids. I say this not just because of what James has told me, but from what others have witnessed and told me. Anyway, we assumed that Lisa was kicking Jamie out because she was no longer getting child support and wanted someone else to take responsibility for him. Well, that may also be true, but he has turned out to be a bit of a free loader, and no amount of talking to him seems to help. My husband has been the one to look thru the paper for job listings, circle them and tell him to call to apply, etc. Hell, even the current part time job Jamie has is because James was the one to use his influence to get it! I have seen this kid deliberately sabotage his place with his current job as well as interviews for full time work. I was so angry yesterday when I saw him leave for an interview dressed in cargo shorts, a t-shirt and a ball cap!!! Even worse, he left our house at 11:45 for a 12 o'clock interview downtown! It takes that amount of time, under the best circumstances, to get down there. Argh!!! I'm pulling my hair out. I've already given the kids the deadline of June'12 to be out of the house. I told them this back in June when I became fed up with what slobs they are, and the problem with them doing their chores. I'm at the end of my rope now.