Everyone Desperately Want To Tell About Stress But Can't Until Asked

I've read so many articles regarding the unpleasant ideas about being forced to disclose injury details for your t, although I hope this isn't completely crazy. I am coping with the alternative.
I've many 'concerns' that I am aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step-father to a grownup that I trusted in HighSchool as being a maternal figure that later confirmed she'd other suggestions for that relationship... And what's daily becoming more of the confidence that I have repressed very early neglect (I've always had dangers but am not hearing his and my style within my brain and it isnot satisfying change of words)... I have NEVER told information on ANY of this stuff. I've mentioned to two individuals who "anything" occurred with this person I respected which was the level. I am suffering from images, small video within my mind of those I recall and now these voices of what I suppose.
Does this make sense to EVERYONE? I know I'd be REMARKABLY embaressed to express what exactly I would need to and I hope it'sn't anything ill making me wish to... But I'm so worried we will spend years tiptoeing across the facts since he thinks I'm worried and I am seriously attempting to spill the beans. I hope I could tell him this, however it is not allowed.
I have discovered that I am unable to tell him SOMETHING if he doesn't ask directly and am dealing with a t. I've told him this and he is proficient at looking to ask me questions. The problem is, I can also not tell him what to ask. it is similar to I'm prohibited to only freely tell things-but I'm allowed to answer honestly, although I know it may appear completely insane. He's gone backwards and forwards about 'handling' trauma after which I believe I am so quiet about things going on he does not think they starts to consider we have to go another way and are. I get upset when I hear him want to give up hope about actually getting relief and acquire really depressed and discuss not addressing the trauma especially. I can't tell him that although it's like I UNDERSTAND I've to https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anybody-desperately-want-to-tell-about-trauma-but-cant-unless-asked.57793/ - Tell About Stress - have these details out. I believe he is also worried I can not manage coping with the injury right due to my anxiety attacks, but I don't learn how to transform any one of this. He discusses trauma that you can and attempting to get it done with as small detail and I have read about every one of these new techniques to take care of PTSD without detailed handling, but I'd like it bad.