Driving

Is it just me or do any of the rest of you do the same.  I hate to get in my car and go anywhere anymore.  Every time I do I cry - never fails.  And I always seem to be going near or around somewhere Chris has been or Chris and I have been and here come the tears again.  Last month I actually left my buggy at Walmart sitting in one of the isles with groceries in it.  I try to avoid certain areas of Walmart but that isn't always possible.  I had gone down an isle that was close to the men's department and low and behold there was a fall shirt that was exactly Chris's style and would have looked so good on him - I just left my buggy right there and couldn't get out of the place fast enough.  The memories are just so precious and yet so damn painful.  I don't like roller coasters - never have - they always made me sick - and I damn sure didn't get in line for this one!

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I hate driving also...It reminds me of the times we went out to eat or shopping...and the Wal-mart...I have left buggies there also...it was her most favorite store...I just hurt wanting to see her dance and act silly in the isles like she always did there...
KandL
KandL

Its so true - the memories are everywhere. I have left my cart in stores & I go several miles out of my way to avoid going down Eddie\'s street by his apartment. I was so blessed that my beloved boy lived one half mile away in the next town. I often walked to his home. Now its just torture to go by his house. I so want to rewind time & pop in for a visit as I often did. I used to scream & cry in the car. Now I listen to books on tape while I drive so I don\'t think & miss him. Its just brutal isn\'t it? I understand & I wish you peace & healing. Love to you & Chris. Linda, Eddie\'s mom
JennsMom66
JennsMom66

I find that driving by myself is when I think..and think..and think..and cry,,, and cry...and cry...
damn if I didn\'t hit the car in front of me one day while doing this (they had stopped but I didn\'t see it though my tears) and of course they thought I was crying because I hit them and did $ 7000 worth of damange to MY car (none to theirs fortunately)... I really try to keep myself occupied singing to the top of my lungs now.. safer than crying in the car while driving...
but shoping that is another story, I am sure I looked like a fool with tears down my face at the ShopRite..and it wasn\'t the high cost of groceries... memories
NoraMc
NoraMc

I also hate going certain places, I avoid resturants and shops that we would go to together. While shopping at Wegman\'s. I have a tear, I wipe them and wonder what people think, did they see my cry? but I do not care, but I do shop quickly. Nora
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

I understand these feelings so well. I see the kind of car Doug drove all over town. Even the same color and it always makes my heart hiccup. You are not alone in this and I\'m hopeful that in time some of this will begin to soften. Peace to our hearts today and love. Joanie
deleted_user
deleted_user

Sandi, yes, Nathan used to call me from Georgia most evenings when I got off work around 5:30. Now when I go home each night, I grieve for his call and he\'s the first thing on my mind when I get in the car.

I guess I\'ve never left a cart, but I\'ve come close. So many things reminds me of Nathan. I try not to cry in public, but sometimes, I just can\'t help it. Heart 2 heart, Danette
misshim
misshim

I sure understand. I still find myself in stores where I\'m reminded of Justin. I see items he liked or things he would wear. I\'m reminded of him around certain foods, the kind of work boots he would wear.

Oh and a couple times, someone has walked by me that had on the same cologne Justin would always wear. When that happened I remember inhaling as deep as I could to smell that smell forever. It never ends. Peace to you my friend. Love, Kelly
biowoman
biowoman

Oh yes...the car is tough...I think it is because we blindly drive from one place to another...so our minds are \"idle\"...and the thoughts rush in. Of course...the reminders are everywhere. We have lived \"their\" lifetime with us...so we have a million memories...so there are sooo many things to remind us. Just this week...someone passed me driving a Toyota Tacoma (which Alex had) and the tears lept from my eyes...love to you...Karen