disconnected

Not much has changed about the way I've been feeling the last couple of months.  I don't want to talk or hang out with friends because I don't feel that there's anything to say.  My life is the same sad story everyday and I'm not sure what to do to change it. I fight to keep the faith and I often wonder why God has brought me into this season of despair.  I want so bad to reengage with myself so that I continue serving God in the capacity in which I'm used to serving Him. I am discouraged from journaling because I feel like all I do is randomly babble about senseless things that do not make sense.  However, I will try each day to express my thoughts and feelings through journaling. In Him,Ryan