Closer

I’m beginning to understand how people eventually commit suicide. They keep fighting and trying “one more day” until they realize there is no more hope. I’m beginning to see that the best time of my life was the past seven years and its all downhill from here. I will never recover what I’ve lost or get another job I can take pride in. The few friends I have will understand that this was just meant to be. Every day brings me closer to this reality.