Ah, Wednesday

It's been a busy week at work.  Sometimes that's a good thing, it distracts from the annoyances of twinges, tingles and whatever other strange sensations occur.  Sometimes it just means that I'm to tired at night to do anything else.  It's interesting how each day is so different and yet the same.  Sometimes when I stop and think I wonder if I've really had some of these symptoms for years and just kept moving to much to notice.  Other times I know I never felt this tired all the time or had the other "aches and pains" that plague me now.  I feel whiney and cranky at myself for being lazy -- I've never been one to sit around and simple just sit and the guilt for doing just that is almost to much some days.  Then I get busy and make myself get things done because it's nagging in my head that I have so much to do (not pressure from others but just from myself) once I get moving I do get some stuff done.  Never as much as I expect - my head is much more energetic than my body - and then there is the next day.  The day that's even harder to get out of bed and moving again -- all because I did to much the day before.  Aarrrgh.  Guess I'm full of complaints tonight.  My body says time to sleep -- my miind says to much to do.  So I lay there with what seems to be a never ending to do list -- it's always been an evolving list but at least in the past I could cross things off.  Now I just seem to keep rearranging the list but getting nowhere fast on completing it.  Hmmmm, maybe time to get out actual paper and pencils to write things down (less likely to forget things too).  So is the forgetfulness yet another symptom or is it just age?  Maybe all this is just age and I don't know it!? ha ha  Somehow I just don't think so.  Darn tick bite that started this downhill slide -- what a nuisance.  And for someone who wants answers ... not actually ever knowing if indeed that is what started all this is in itself frustrating.  Hmm, maybe instead of rambling for a theme I should have put complaining.  Better work on that!  Ok, upbeat, hmmm.  No hot/cold confusion in my foot today!  No tripping (at least obviously) at work.  No dropped dishes or glasses unloading the dishwasher.  See not a half bad day!  Well, now that I've hit on a few positives for the day I think I'll sign off and maybe actually get some sleep.  Hugs and prayers to all DS friends.  I am truly grateful for finding this site -- a safe place to vent, cry, and celebrate all that life has thrown at us all.  Hope everyone has a marvelous Thursday!

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I hope you got some restful sleep. Good for you to find some things to be positive about. God bless you.