Well..

I have been relapsing a lot this past two weeks the total is up to 3 times so far, and knowing my luck the number will just accumalate while time goes on. I know that I should be better than this however there is nothing left to fall back on physically. I need someone to hold...To hug...that is a guy...maybe instead I should just keep cutting and start drinking then at least I will not have to cope with the cuts and bites of lonlieness as often...what do you guys think?