I am currently in the middle of my exams and things are very interesting.  Very hectic and very stressful. I guess it seems to trigger many things.  I feel as if I could really crack under this pressure.  I need to take time to exercise and keep myself sane but I cannot because I have so much to do. And at the moment I cannot even concentrate enough to study.   My life is just one big blur and I am really feeling unsure about things.  I don't think I can ever possibly get through being raped.  Just when I think I'm over it and things are ok, something triggers it off and things are ten times worse.  I just want to scream.