I was going to go to a women's meeting at 4:30, but I took a nap and slept through it. I wanted to just stay home, but I forced myself to look up another meeting....and I went! Even though it wasn't what I wanted to do, I did it. That is the first time I have done that in a long time! Ha! Usually I do what I want...if I want to drink, I drink. I have to change my thoughts that I can do what I want. No more of that. It's not what I want to do, it's what I have to do.