We've been having an unusual cold spell and my knees have been killing me. I had to do an in-person consent at a hospital a couple of days ago and the walk had me reaching for the vicoden as soon as I got home. I broke down and bought a cane to help with long walks. I'm really tired of living like this. I ordered an eliptical trainer and spoke to a physical therapist about getting in shape before the surgery. My plan now would put me in the hospital in the early/mid spring. This also means I'll have to really buckle down and have my work to a point that I can be out for at least three weeks. My Doc told me it would be a couple of months before I felt like doing any serious activity but there's no way I can be off that long. I'm sure I can do a lot of work from home since I live next door and people can run paperwork over to me. I'm very fortunate to have found this site. Checking out the many folks here and learning how they have been facing their own challenges is a great inspiration. Being forced to have this surgery might be something I needed to make me focus my efforts. I told my supervisors last year that 07 would be my busiest ever and it certainly was. Now it looks like 08 will be about the same if not more. On one hand, I guess I asked for this, on the other, I'm finally realizing that there are people who were ment to be alone. I'm going to keep my head down and work as hard as I can on my work here in organ/tissue donation, my Arizona funeral director's license, and Para-Legal school. Maybe when I come out on the other side, I'll have a chance at a more "normal" life.