Well, my new years focus was to create and experience more joy in my life. So, far so good. I have been waking up and focusing on what is good. Rather than dreading another day of back pain and struggling to do the things I want to do. I am trying to focus on the things I can do. I am grateful for my job. So, grateful. I love teaching and I love kids. I used to be a very upbeat and positive person. Life had the potential to be magical. I felt a gifting in my life. The gift of enthusiasm. Well, over the past 4 years the changes in my disease have left me feeling not at all my old self. I let my circumstances rob me of my joy. Last week I and at the end of our vacation, I really focused on God's joy. Doing so I found more of the self I used to be. I felt more like the person I wanted to be. I think it is a good start. I don't expect every day to be perfect, I know I will have a bad moment. But when I fail to remain positive, it is an opportunity to refocus and grow from within. So, it is a brand new week. And although I am tired, I feel joy today. I am blessed to have a job, husband, and a roof over my head. God is good.