Fuck everyone, I hate it. anger bubbles through these veins, rains down on me like invisible boulders, they make there way through through the air, to my chest. they rip into me wit pure, delighted triumph. It engulfs me as I know myself. It takes over my body, and uses me like a puppet. Then leaves me instantaneously. I'm left with the consequences of it. I'm left with the yelling, the embarrassment, the pain. I curl up in a ball, physically holding myself together, 2 keep my body from tearing apart. Time stands still when I'm alone. It ticks by ever so slowly, increasing the excruciating pain that fills this body of mine. I grab the glinting object from the cold container it lives in. I slice it into this body of mine. The cold, heartless feeling engulfs the pain away, and replaces it with signals from my body that it is losing the fluid it needs to keep the physical being alive. I struggle as the dark liquid obeys to the laws of gravity and runs down towards the ground. I stare in solemn silence, looking at the tree's limping, and the sun hiding itself from the monstrosity of the being in this body. I feel free as my body loses all life as the fluid decides that it likes the ground better. Finally the last drop falls, and time stops as I watch wit the dull, fuzzy eyes. My whole life is in that last drop, it shows me all the pain, suffering and joy iv brought to people's life. It also showed me that this is the decision to remove the ability to think was permanent, an i could not take it back. Suicide is not the only option you have. You could 2lk 2 someone, write a story, listen 2 music the options are endless, jus don't waste the life you have, because it's a permanent thing that would b regretted, 4 a temporary problem. So don't let negative feelings destroy ur body, remember you r stronger than u realise. :).xxx

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Smaraly
Smaraly

Somehow i think this message will make anyone feel better. Also show them what a life of self inflicted pain can lead to. One miss judged sl or one just deep enough to watch yourself bleed to death is...
I don\'t even know you that well but Thankyou got posting this.

Love,
Alycia
Beckay
Beckay

:) I was jus feeling creative, and merged my feelings in with my morals and all, and this was the result of it. I\'v also had a few friends who have been on the edge of committing sucide, it kinda came from that :).x