Isabella's due date is coming up, August 3rd. I took the day off work to spend it with my daughter, Lauren. It will be a hard day for me but I know it will be even worse for her. It's so hard knowing Isabella should be here with us right about now, and we should all be so happy. I still keep wondering why this had to happen. I find myself mad at God and wondering why he didn't answer our prayers. Everyone says that it is God's will and we will someday know the answer to all the questions, that she is in Heaven and we will see her one day. I try so hard to believe, but no matter how hard I pray for understanding, it doesn't come. I want to know exactly WHERE is Heaven???