Isabella's due date is coming up, August 3rd.  I took the day off work to spend it with my daughter, Lauren. It will be a hard day for me but I know it will be even worse for her. It's so hard knowing Isabella should be here with us right about now, and we should all be so happy.  I still keep wondering why this had to happen. I find myself mad at God and wondering why he didn't answer our prayers. Everyone says that it is God's will and we will someday know the answer to all the questions, that she is in Heaven and we will see her one day. I try so hard to believe, but no matter how hard I pray for understanding, it doesn't come. I want to know exactly WHERE is Heaven???  

Replies

deleted_user
deleted_user

I am right there with you. My grandsons angelversary is Aug 5th. My daughter is on her honeymoon at the beach. I am doing a balloon release at the grave and they are doing a release at the beach. I keep asking God why. We are supposed to have a grandbaby here with us. They are trying again. I pray for them everynight. I often pray for the ladies on here also. They have really helped me. I can talk about Nathan all I want on here and no one gets tired of hearing about him.
Isabellasgrandma
Isabellasgrandma

I know what you mean. When I try to talk to someome about Isabella, I get the feeling they are just thinking \"enough, already!\" The only people who never get tired of talking about her are my daughter and my sisters. I even had one family member tell me, \"You have to let her go and put her to rest, it\'s not healthy to dwell on it.\" That REALLY pissed me off! I will NEVER let her go, and I will come to terms with this when I am ready and not a moment sooner. Certainly not on anyone else\'s timetable! It\'s only been 4 months. Give me a break! :0(