Today has not been one of my better days, and I'm really feeling it. For the first part of the morning I cried and cried. Then I did some paperwork, which helped a little. Tonight will be the first night I have off, which I will actually not see him. Since we broke up over the weekend, I at least had work to preoccupy me. So tonight will be hard. I'm trying to think of something to do to get out of the house so that I won't feel the loneliness so badly. I may do my food shopping, or go to the bookstore and read. Since I work nights, I'm generally asleep during the day, but I could not sleep this time. I will try to see if I can confront this loneliness head on without doing something "stupid".