I'm on the 13th day of without being in contact with the ex. He called me yesterday and I'm feeling the urge to get back in touch. I feel like I miss him and want to go back...I know what I will be going back to. Nothing has changed in him. He's the same person he's always been and I would be going back into the lion's den. I would be taking back these precious 13 days that I have been working so hard to get through. I want him to be missing me, calling me, fighting to get me back. In the end though I can't keep denying the fact that he's not being genuine. He wants to keep me hanging on. I'm so frightened. I am scared that I will never be truly free of him because I won't have it in me to break completely away. What's crazier is that I keep reminiscing about all of our times together and I find that I'm missing the fantasy of who I wanted him to be. The man who would change his ways and be kind to me. Not the kid who played me like a ping pong ball. I want to have faith in myself but in moments like these I'm so scared that I won't be able to make the healthy choice for myself, especially when I never have before...
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