I feel a great sense of happiness in the friendship i am developing with Nigel. Today i am scared by it because i don't want this relationship to turn into something that i use to stop me having to deal with my hopelessness and abandonment issues. Nigel is not someone who is in need of help like the other relationships i have found myself in. In fact he is the one offering me help and giving such good advice and genuine caring concern regarding my best friends mum who is dying of cancer. Being a cynical romantic i can see this as him wanting to impress me and to get our relationship further than friendship by being so supportive but i really enjoy his company and his mind and there is also a physical attraction too which i am not acting on. It is the communication between us that is so inspiring and makes me feel good so i pray for the strength to keep it this way and not to let emotions and feelings take over and stop me from doing the personal growth work that i need to do for me.
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