I was sitting here this morning beating myself up for being a "bad wife", because my ex (who I have no contact with) was telling people that he was having major back surgery this morning. I was going back & forth between maybe I should make sure he is ok, maybe I should at least send flowers. Then moving on to, Did he ever ask if you were ok when he called you all those horrible names? Did he ever ask if you were ok when he told what you could, not do, spend money on, wear, etc. Did he ever ask if you were ok when he hit you, threw things at you. I was still allowing some guilty to seep in dispite all of the horrible treatment. Then amazingly enough, the local morning news was on and the report was interving my Ex's brother as part of the "how to winterize your lawn" segment. Why am I feeling guilty when his own brother isn't even at the hospital with him????????????????? Either my ex lied about the surgery to try and get me back, or others who have known him longer do not give a rats ass if he is having a major operation. I am fine. The best I can do is ask God to place his care in His hands. I need to look out for me. I will not be sucked back in.
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