Tonight in my alanon meeting, I suddenly realised that I am waiting for the other shoe to drop! It is 14 months since I ended my marriage and less than one year since I realised he is an alcoholic. So all in all I am really new to the recovery process.
However tonight I realised that I have grown so accustomed to the ''other shoe dropping'' in our marriage every 6 to 12 months, that without realising it, I am sort of holding my breath in anticipation.
I wonder how long before I fully embody that all that is really part of my past and I am in control of what happens to me now. I create my own peace.
I am really happy that I realised this tonight. Now that I recognise it, I can begin to let it go.