Hi everyone. Well, it's Christmas Eve and I sit here listening to my kids play the Wii in the other room and wonder where everything went wrong. I know where it went wrong, I just don't like to admit that I married an alcoholic almost 21 years ago. I am searching for the strenght to finish what I have started. I have finally followed through on what used to be an empty threat....I'm leaving. I have found a small little house and have paid 3 months rents upfront but it's not ready yet and this has me worried. However, it should be done by the 1st but the problem is that the longer I am here the harder it's going to be for me to follow through and leave. The problem of leaving? I really love him. We were high school sweetheearts who were apart for 2 years after highschool before getting back together and finally marrying....I was 14 when I started dating him and I am now nearing 42. Last night (as the kids 24, 19, & 14) were watching Christmas movies, he decided not to come home after work but rather go to the bar. Shortly after midnight here he comes up the driveway, hammered drunk and driving the truck. I'm tired of him telling me he's making changes....yeah, right. In April of '09 I went so far as to have him court ordered to rehab....what a joke, he was out in 12 days. I'm here for strenghth!! I'm so glad I found this group.
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