I feel so sad that this is what I have for a life. I have my kids and am very grateful for them, but I don't have a partner. When something comes up, I have no one to lean on. I have no one to share my day with. I have no one to look forward to my golden years with. I have felt so terribly sad about this.
But, I'm not giving up on my own life. Today I started praying, asking God to help me salvage the years I have left. So, while I'm very sad that my marriage exists in name only, I'm hopeful that God will help me find a new life.