Feeling totally frustrated and alone, I found this website tonight. I realized there are so many others who are going through the same thing as me, which was so comforting. Sometimes I just don't think I can make it one more day with his drinking 10-12 beers every night after work. He goes to work every day at like 6:30 or 7am, comes home around 8pm, stays in the garage at his desk "working" until approx. 11 or 12 midnight, then comes to bed. Really the only time we see each other is on the weekends, and then he is really hammered. The problem is I feel I can't say anything because I am a Realtor and things have been very bad for me this year with the economy, so he has been the primary bread winner. He works so hard. I feel I don't have a leg to stand on. Many times I have wanted to leave, but my Christian faith is telling me to stay. He is not a Christian and I feel he takes advantage of the fact that he knows I won't leave. I feel unloved, yet I am so disgusted with him and turned off by his drinking that I am losing attraction for him and don't want him to touch me. I don't know what to do.......
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