I am such an emotional wreck right now. Divorce is final and I thought I could actually be happy for once in my life. But I am so depressed and guilt ridden its now even funny. He was suppose to be out of the house on August 1st. He's still there and its driving me nuts. I know its up to me to do something about it but the guilt is making it hard for me and he knows how to play on that. He has no where to go but has had about 8 months to figure something out. Total denial on his part that I would go through with it. I am financially in a bind and he wants me to grant him an extended stay indefinitly. I told him no he has to be out by this Sunday. He threw a fit and started crying because no one will take him in. His family is purchasing a home for him to fix up and be an investment on their part but he and the family are nit picking it to death. They have cash to pay for it so getting a loan is not an issue. But now he's saying once he finds a place he needs them to approve it, then get it inspected and then the closing which can take more than a month and on top of that most are HUD homes so that process alone could take months. I just want him out so I can start my life again. I am considering a room mate to help financially not sure everyone will be happy about that but oh well. My daughter that has helped me out with bills wants to get an apartment of her own. Not because of all the drama but she will be 29 and thinks its time she moves on as well. I don't want to be a burden to her financially it is time she starts her life. I just feel like crawling under a rock at this point and never coming out. I already have issues with depression and anxiety on a daily basis and have seen a councelor for it and also take medication to curb the effects. This depression is emotional though and I do know in time it will go away but I am a basket case and hate feeling like this.
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