We were going on holiday last night but he went off to the field where we keep our horses (they were coming too) and got drunk, disappeared (presumably driving drunk as well, Oh horror) My sons eventually found him and brought him home four hours later. I'm too old to start coping with this and working full time and worrying about unemployed sons. Of course I will cope, others have to manage with so much worse but I am in a state of total anxiety, worry and can see no future for us. I should throw him out but I dare say it would kill him and i still love him so much. I don't expect any solutions, just wanted to share. Have cried all night, could grow potatoes in my nose to mouth lines!
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...