After a pretty lousy Monday and Tuesday, yesterday was a pretty decent day. Kept my three and a half yr old granddaughter all afternoon. Don’t tell anyone but right now she is my favorite! She is so full of innocence, love and curiosity that you can’t help feeling happy around her. In my bathroom with me while I was putting on my makeup, picking up each cosmetic - what’s this for? Did you do this yet? Can I have lipstick, too? (I always say yes) She notices and questions everything. So I shouldn’t have been surprised when she noticed the lone toothbrush in the holder. Why is there only the pink toothbrush? Where is the blue one? Papa doesn’t need it anymore, sweetie. Because he died? Yes, because he died. Did you throw it out? Now that last question had an inflection of horror in it that screamed how dare you? Yes, I threw it out....
And then ,once again, the subject jumped to something totally unrelated as it always does. We had a fun day playing, talking, and watching Disney Jr. Went to visit a friend of mine recuperating from a bad fall. She never met a stranger and is a little chatterbox over there.(She takes after her Grandma)Then home to change into her leotard and tutu and go to dinner and dance class at 6:30. I drop her off with Mom who brings her 5 yr old sister out to the car and we swap. So now for the second time in an hour I’m going to Chick-Fil-A, their favorite fast food place. The 5 yr old is not nearly as chatty but does chastise me for asking the young father with 2 kids sitting across from us if he could open her fruit cup for me. I am not a helpless female but this thing was on so dam secure it wasn’t budging. Where the hell are you when I need you, Jack? Anyway, he graciously accepted and opened it for me, but not without a struggle himself! So, my granddaughter says, out loud, “that man is a stranger and you talked to him” in a tone that implied she just might send me to my room! LOL He chuckles, I cringe. I guess her parents are doing a good job in the stranger danger department. I deliver her safely back to Mom at the dance school and I come home back to the empty house. And another lonely, contemplative evening begins...
But you must admit it was a pretty good day. :) Today started with multiple taps on the snooze button- awake but not wanting to get out of the bed and face the world. We’ll see how fast this roller coaster goes today.
BTW- the toothbrush is the ONLY thing I have parted with so far. I can’t even throw out a piece of paper with a short notation in his handwriting.
Hope your day today is as good as my yesterday!
Today is our 32nd wedding anniversary. This is the hardest day since you went away my Sweet Tony. You always said that Forever would not be enough time for us to love one another. You were so right my love. Thank you for the Fairytale. I miss you so much!!!!!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNNRGa3pKyw
My oldest son, who is 66 years old lost his wife to liver cancer several years ago. He owns a home on 5 wooded acres so he was busy for awhile. He finally sold his RV and went on a CRUISE and met someone! She lives in a different state but travels for her job, so they meet in different places, wherever her job takes her. They are having fun! SHE is quite a bit younger -- 50 years old...