My loss is just slightly over a month, so I'm in the numb stage still, having lost my husband so suddenly and unexpectedly. I don't even feel like myself, I'm sleepwalking through life right now. Especially from those who have been widowed a year or more, are you able to experience pleasure from anything? To keep from losing myself completely (not just the half that is irreplacable), I'm trying to get back to having lunch with friends, etc., but my body might be there but I'm not there mentally or emotionally. I love my friends and don't know what I'd do without them, but with everything I'm only going through the motions. It's such an effort to appear to be enjoying myself. I'm not, and I used to be a fun person, but there's nothing funny now. Plus, I don't want to be the object of anyone's pity, although I'm pretty pitiful right now. I don't expect to be wearing lamp shades, but I'd like to know that there can be if not joy at least some pleasure again. Thanks for sharing your experiences with me. Dixiewoman
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