The last couple of weeks I have had a multitude of things go wrong here at the house. My air conditioner went out (it had given me a problem a week or two before but thought it was fixed for the moment anyway), so had to have a new coil put in that (expensive plus I had to buy a window unit to use while it was out--which didn't fit right and caused water to leak in--and then it quit---had to take it back) our little Dachsund got sick with pancreatitis and ended up in the hospital for a week (very expensive--who knew barium studies and other xrays for animals were so expensive?), my vacuum quit so had to buy an inexpensive one to use until I can get the part ordered for my good one, then my water heater burst and flooded everywhere--had to have that replaced and then came the clean up efforts---what a mess. I find myself walking by my husband's picture and asking him if he's trying to tell me something. He loved this house, it was where we wanted to spend our retirement years, we worked hard to get it, and I have thought all along that he would want me to stay right here, but now I find myself wondering if he's trying to tell me I need to get out of this big house. I know that's probably not rational thinking, I know things go wrong, but I can't quit thinking about it. I don't really want to move, but this is a big house for one person, and a lot of property to take care of. My oldest son has kept the yards up, my youngest son can fix pretty much anything, so they have done all the work that needed done--but it's been expensive nonetheless. Steve's been gone for 7 months, is it normal to have these thoughts--that maybe he is trying to tell me something--that maybe he's behind the things going wrong to get my attention? Does that sound completely crazy? My son says it's just normal things going wrong and his dad would never want me to move from here--my oldest daughter says maybe he's just telling me it's ok to give up the house and move somewhere else if I want to. Just wondering if it's normal for me to wonder if somehow he's trying to tell me something? Is it a common experience for others who have lost their spouse or am I losing it?
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