My husband died 20 months ago. I have had almost every kind of counseling a person could have, talked to many people here on DS with great advice and kindness,however, I am still having a hard time healing. I can't forgive myself. I hate myself for not being more compassionate to my husbands situation with his health and mental state. I can't forgive myself for arguing with him 1 1/2 hours before he was killed. And I can't forgive myself for not appreciating him every minute of every day we had together. I pray that he is really at peace and no longer suffers. And I know he would forgive me. But what do I do to get on living my life? Thank you for listening.
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