My husband passed away 8 months ago of a heart attack. He was 37 years old. My in laws blame me because of his death. No one wants to admit that he had a bad heart. In 05 he had open heart surgury. After the surgery he started to become a different person. He cursed at me and called me all kinds of names. It becamen to much for me. I did have an affair on him. It was wrong of me I know and I have to live with that every day of my life. We had tried counseling and everythingn but nothing worked. On March 6, 2007 we argued, he left the house and that was the last time I saw him. His family hates me and blames me for everything. If they only knew how much I hate myself they probally would forgive me. I cry every day. I still love him with all of my heart. I never stopped loving him. I hope one day I can love myself.
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