Well I am approaching 11 months. The good is in the last few weeks I decided to really teach myself how to cook. Lots of experiments and to my surprise lots of success lol. There is a sense of peace that is slowly coming over me where I feel I can manage this grief monster on some level. The bad is there continues to be unexpected triggers all over the place. I was at mass tonight and when everyone went to greet each other peace there was a couple that gave each other a small kiss like my wife and I used to do. My heart skipped a beat when I saw that. The feelings of how much I missed her came rushing back. The ugly I would saw is the grief journey itself. Its damn painful and not a a nice road to travel. It just sucks on every level. Does anyone else have good, bad and uglies to share. If I have to travel this journey I am glad I have everyone here to share it with. Gerald
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