The tears still flow, along with the longing for him to return to me. I was just thinking when I got home from work yesterday and saw his cane by the door why haven’t I gotten rid of that (I haven’t gotten rid of any of his things) or at least moved it? It just hit me-he’ll need it when he comes back and I began to cry walking past the cane into the empty house. Are these things triggers for more pain? Or a sign of reality continuing to set in? Is it better to be rid of his things? I have felt comfort having his things still around me but this kinda threw me back. Actually until that moment yesterday I hadn’t even really noticed it there. Weird that I did then & why? I’m always questioning my thoughts and asking why things happen? Why I think things when I do. Anyone else do this? I think I’m going nuts!
Today is our 32nd wedding anniversary. This is the hardest day since you went away my Sweet Tony. You always said that Forever would not be enough time for us to love one another. You were so right my love. Thank you for the Fairytale. I miss you so much!!!!!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNNRGa3pKyw
I’ve been with my boyfriend for about four months now. He’s 20. I’m 19. He’s amazing and absolutely perfect for me but I’m constantly afraid that he’s going to dump me. He doesn’t show signs of it. He reassures me. I just know that one day I won’t be with him and that crushes me. I cry wondering how much longer I have with him. He doesn’t want to move in at the start of next...