The tears still flow, along with the longing for him to return to me. I was just thinking when I got home from work yesterday and saw his cane by the door why haven’t I gotten rid of that (I haven’t gotten rid of any of his things) or at least moved it? It just hit me-he’ll need it when he comes back and I began to cry walking past the cane into the empty house. Are these things triggers for more pain? Or a sign of reality continuing to set in? Is it better to be rid of his things? I have felt comfort having his things still around me but this kinda threw me back. Actually until that moment yesterday I hadn’t even really noticed it there. Weird that I did then & why? I’m always questioning my thoughts and asking why things happen? Why I think things when I do. Anyone else do this? I think I’m going nuts!
It’s been eighteen months and the loss of my husband of thirty years is as great as it was on day one ☹️ I’ve had people to tell me that everyday the loss of my husband will get better. Well, that hasn’t been the case with me. Everyday, I feel so lost and alone. I have a very good support system. My husband and I have two daughters in college and I had two young boys that my husband...
Its been 7 weeks since my husband passed suddenly. It was so unexpected that its still not feeling real. I sleep on my couch , well lay here and not sleep. Some days I sleep and some I dont and it's never well. I dont know how to feel comfortable. My whole life crumbled around me. How does one deal with this. I'm so sad please help