I am going to give this a try. I lost my husband almost 4 weeks ago. He was very young, 34, and we were married 13 years. I want to know if what I am feeling is normal. I am numb. I do not have any type of feeling or emotion, including hunger. The only thing I feel is anger and when I do get angry, I get REALLY angry. I don't feel sad, happy, or anything else. His passing was sudden and a shock. To make matters worse we have two children 10 & 12 who are now just starting to somewhat return to their normal selves. He was my soul mate and understood me like no one else. I do have a support system of friends and family, however only one good friend that really has been there for me lives near me and everyone else is far away. I do feel lost, confused and not sure what to do with the rest of our lives. We lived on disability and now receiving the survivors benefits, but still not enough to allow for me to go back to school or anything like that. Any advice or references will be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
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