I wanted to know if anyone's found a new purpose in life since the loss of their loved one. I feel I will never find one. It's going to be 10 months, but all I do is mope around, not really wanting to do anything. I've tried to force myself out. Went to the movies by myself on Saturday, saw Brideshead Revisited. I was the only person sitting by myself. I realized how everyone seemed to be coupled, while I was all alone. I want to learn to be by myself and enjoy it, but I find so little to enjoy anymore. When will I find purpose? What do I need to do to find it? I read a few pages of "The Purpose Driven Life" and for some reason, it just turned me off. It wasn't coming from where I was/am. A widower after 27 years of being with my one true love. Will I wind up like Heathcliff from "Wuthering Heights". Going mad slowly, thinking and missing my one true love till the day I die? I don't want to end up like that, but I don't see a light at the end of this tunnel I am in. Will I ever find purpose again?
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