hi all ,well I lost my husband on 4/24/07,after 22 yrs of marriage,I started dating him when I was 13,I am now 38,I we have 4 kids ages 21,19,17,15, ---3boys & 1 girl, I dont know what I am suppose to do now, he was my everything we grew up together, I dont like going any where ,when I do, I feel like I am doing something wrong, he was in a car wreck on 6/7/06 with our older son,they were at work, he has had 3 back surgerys, he was in alot of pain but not now, the night before on the 23rd ,he was fine,he had to get up early to go for his disability,and he never woke up, I just dont understand it,our 2nd son did cpr till help got here,I saw him gasp for air and after that they took him away they worked on forever it seemed,it still doesnt seem real to me,the doctor said it was a heart attack ,but the autospy isnt back yet, what do I do now? how do I get throught this? and now my 2nd son who is 19 is going to be a dad his self, I am happy ,but it seems so unfair he is suppose to be here to see his 1st grandchild,can you give me any advise? our 23rd ann........ is 10/28/07,at times I feel like I am losing my mind,it just keeps starting over &over ,and I have trouble sleeping ,I see it over &over when will it get better? or does it?
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