I lost my husband suddenly two months ago due to a heart attack brought on by previously undiagnosed heart disease. We have a 6 year old son. needless to say I'm devastated at his loss. I lost the love of my life and my soulmate.We would have celebrated 10 years of marriage on June 5th of this year. My plan was to grow old together, now I'm faced with coming to terms with the fact that I'm raising our son on my own without my right hand. The frustrating thing about all of this is that he did not show any obvious sypmtoms that anything was wrong. He was very tired all the time but you don't think that an otherwise healthy 46 year old has a major heart problem just because he's tired. Now I know better he was probably tired because his heart was working overtime to function. He was living on borrowed time. I'm Christian so I understand why he was taken from me so quickly but it doesn't stop the heartbrake I'm feeling. The evenings after my son goes to bed are the worst time of the day for me right now. During the day I'm being strong for him because he needs me more than ever now. I'm a Mom first and a grieving widow second at this time. It's hard to keep everything in check even during the day. I'm told that in time I will learn to deal with the fact that he's gone but it sure does hurt having to go through the whole grieving process.
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