I got a call from a grief counselor today. There is a group starting in my area on Mar. 22nd that goes for 10 weeks. I feel it will be good for me because I don't think I am facing my true feelings yet. I feel numb most of the time. Like I have no feelings at all. I cry for my Lee who passed 9 weeks ago today but I try to suppress my feelings as I feel if I suppress my feelings, then it didn't really happen. I am trying to keep myself so busy that I don't give myself time to feel. When I start to cry, I stop myself as quickly as possible. I am afraid to let my true feelings out because if I did, I would have to face the truth that he is really gone from my life and not coming back. Is this normal? How do I get past this stage and start to feel again? I feel as if I shouldn't talk about it to others as I will just upset them and they won't want to listen to me. Even my therapist cancelled my appt. for today and won't be available next week. She told me she will be able to fit me in once a week for a while but her schedule is too full to do it for long. Does anyone in my life care anymore?
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