Yes on Thursday August 11 our wedding anniversary. It would have been our 38th anniversary. I have the plans all made. A trip to the Veteran's cemetery where he is buried. I will put a dozen roses on his grave. I will release a balloon and I know I will cry. Cry for what should have been and what was so wonderful. I will sit on his grave and talk to him. Hopefully the sun will shine like it did on the day we married. then I will kiss his headstone and say I'll see you later just like I did the day he died. He said ok then and when I returned home he was gone. I will see him later when it's my turn to die. Then I will go into the city and gamble at the casino with his spirit beside me. I will pretend that he is playing a machine just out of sight like he used to do. Then I will go home to the reality that he is no longer alive. Happy Anniversary dear I'm doing the best that I can. I love you and I'm keeping that love here in my heart til we meet again.
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