am such a coward. I talk about moving on and learning to do things and when the opportunity comes I back out. I was at work today and 3 good looking guys from England came in. They needed some help finding some shoes so I did what I could to help them. As I am ringing them up, they tell me how gorgeous i am ( which I think they were either drunk or just needed glasses) and ask if i have a boyfriend. I tell them no. They want to know why. I just shrug (because going into details not really appropriate i think at this point) so before they leave, they tell me that they would love for me to meet them tonight for a drink. They even say bring some friends along. Now we are not talking anything elicite mind you. we are talking about meeting up at a designated place in a group of people and one of them really likes me from what they are saying. I tell them that maybe I will. They tell me they would be disappointed if I don't. So I get home and hem and haw and work myself up into a frenzy. Maybe they were just kidding. What if I got there and they weren't interested in having me join them after all? Why were they interested in me in the first place? I cant do it. I just dont have the balls to go. Besides, I know that it was a line me being gorgeous. I am realistic and I am plain maybe a little above plain at best. But it felt good to have someone tell me I am gorgeous. Let alone 3 guys at once. I just hate that I didn't have the nerve to go and have fun IN A GROUP!!! It wasn't even like I would be going on a date. I just feel so pathetic for not even making the effort to get out there. I am mad at myself and feel stupid. I have no idea how to get past this. I know it has only been 5 months but when does it start to be ok to enjoy myself?
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