Today I volunteer in my church to work with the little ones. I was kind of frozen there. I realized that I became old and don't know anymore how to laugh and play with a child. My husband died two years ago and we have a lovely boy. He will be 6 yrs next month. We don't have family over here and from one minute to the other, I became, mother, father, driver, housewife, breadwinner, everything. I guess, I am so focus and keep our lives in order, bills paid and avoid foreclosure of our house that I completely forgot how to sit down and play with a child. And now that the holidays are here, life became harder. I always wanted a big family to share special dates, and when I thought we were in our way to have a family, here I am alone with my son. It is so difficult to just be around during holidays. As we don't have family, there is nowhere to go unless someone invite us. I am having a tough time right now. I need to learn to rewrite my days, create new traditions and be again someone who knows how to bring a smile to a child's face. I want to be happy again.
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