Today marks 3 months that my very heart went to heaven. It seems like so much longer than that. As I have learned grieving causes time warps among other things. I have tried doing busy work on most days just to get thru. I was hoping to do that today but I am sick with the Flu so I am trying to deal with it along with being sick and alone. I have never liked being alone my entire life and this is worse than I expected. My husband and I always believed I would go before him and that way I would never be alone. So much for thinking that I suppose.