It has been 9 1/2 months since my fiancee, David, died. After all this time, I still feel so alone. This week is my birthday and it just brings up the grief so much again. My mom, dad, and other brother all died within a short time of each other about 5 years ago. I spent 2 years away from my hometown caring for David while he was sick. I can't seem to reconnect now that I am moved back. People here didn't know him. The people who knew him didn't know me well. I am just alone. Still no job despite over 200 applications. Just feeling sad and alone. I feel guilty asking for support from all of you who are hurting too, missing your wife or husband. I just don't know where else to turn. You folks understand how empty you feel to lose your soulmate. I just can't seem to live without him. And somedays, I just feel it is too hard to keep trying.
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