With the organization he and I were actively involved together is really weighing on me. Our season starts during the holidays, Black Friday to be exact and goes through the rest of the year. I know I am still honoring him by continuing what we dreamed of together but it is so disappointing but to look up and see him right beside me as he always was. I was the behind the scenes and he was the social... we always complimented each other in every aspect of our relationship. I am now at the "why" phase when I thought I was starting to get better. It hurts even more that I have no energy to do anything. I also am having very vivid dreams which I know aren't real but he is there and I see him and talk to him clearly. I wake with his scent passing over me... I miss us, I feel like no one without him.
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