OK! What does it really mean? As an adjective it means satisfactory but not especially good. As an adverb it means in a satisfactory manner. As a noun it means an approval and as a verb it means to give approval. So when someone asks "Are you OK?" after you have lost a loved one it doesn't really work. I am not satisfied that my husband isn't here, I was not satisfied with the way it happened and I sure didn't give him my approval to leave me. I wake up missing him, I battle the day missing him and I go to bed missing him. So NO I am not OK.
I have been reading and posting for a few years now. I'm sorry for all who have come here before and after me and those who are new to this journey. Its an uphill climb. Thank you to all the friends I've made and all who have helped me. I just don't think I have said that enough. I have been up and down on this roller coaster and it seems as though just when I think I'm better POOF...
I don't know how this works or where to begin. I am just so lost and empty.