I have this feeling of detachment lately that is hard to describe. When I sit and think about why I feel this way, one reason that comes to mind is that there are some controlling family members on my husband's side that I am just really very tired of dealing with. Another reason is that everyone seems to be so busy with their own lives that I am reluctant to bother anyone or even ask for help when I need it. I am not depressed nor am I angry. I can't even say I'm disappointed because I didn't really expect anything different. With the holidays approaching and a couple other anniversaries--birthdays-wedding-and first year--I just feel I don't want to be around anyone. I don't want anyone to feel the need to cheer me up or for me put a smile on my face for the sake of others. I don't want anyone to feel "bad" that I'm alone on the holidays--I've been alone for almost a year now and I am surviving. If I need to cry, I want to be able to do this in privacy. I don't want or need anyone's sympathy as I don't feel pathetic. Can anyone relate to these feelings? If I am asked to join others during the holidays, how can I answer without offending anyone?
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