I lost my fiance a month ago. I dont know what has been harder, losing him or watching him get hit by a car and dying. At times I feel that I am losing my mind. I spend most of my day pushing the thoughts of reality in the back of my head. I finally get to a point where these is no where else to put these horrible images. It's as if my mind will open a door and show me what is going on, and what is in that room is so horrible and painful it quickly shuts, as if protecting me.I have never felt so alone. My fiance was the one person that never walked away from me. I may be young, but I had a very harsh childhood that pushed me to grow up early. I find myself angry that he left me. He promised to always love and protect me. I feel lonely and scared.
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