It has been 3 months today since the death of my husband. He was my world. I am doing what I can to move on and accept that it is just me now, but after 13 years its not so easy. I keep going over in my head all the bad times (I think to punish myself) because if I can just stay mad at him maybe I wont hurt so much. I don't think it is working because even though there were bad times, there were so many more good times. My mother in law said something to me today that really hit me too. I mentioned this website and that I had joined the widows and widowers support group. She said it just wasn't right that I should be a widow at 37. I am too young. I agree. But what can I do. Nothing. I am just glad that there are people that I can reach out to and talk to about Randy that understand. The support that everyone here shows is amazing. Thank you all for that.
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