So many things I want to take hold of in my life to create 'what I want'. I was doing some meditating the other day about exactly what I "need" rather than what I want. There are a lot of things I need as well, so where do I start? Kick my butt out of the chair infront of the computer for a start.
When the virus got really bad in my area I stayed at home and have only left my house about 5 times since March. I am a loner, and live alone. My family has all passed, except my son, most of my friends have died, moved away or we just aren't friends anymore. My social contacts have all bit the dust as they are all closed. I am Blessed to have my son to talk with, but he can't come home and stay overnight because of the health virus rules where he lives. Like many others!!! I've No Complaints as some have Far Worse Situations than I live with!!!
So I'm right down crawling just to do the basic self care, meds, dressing, eating, drinking fluids and taking care of my Beloved (cat) Chachi. So many times of starting and stopping, beating myself up to a pulp...lots of pulp with the hope **this time** I'll make it to change behaviors, from poor habits to healthy habits and create the better life "I Want".
Yesterday was a bright sunny day, if not warm, today I'm chilled to the bones...I got sick last night so I'm trying to rehydrate and felt so bad this am I went back to bed until almost 1pm. This doesn't help with my challenges to have sleep to be regulated...pulp #1 Last Night I Stayed Up Until 2am...this is a side track which is a work in progress to change as I'm a night owl...my hope is to get 'into' bed by 11pm and get up at 9am, yes, alarm set, perhaps I should set another alarm for 10pm??
Today I got a few things done and finished up some things which were left over from yesterday...laundry. I've managed to get my wash done, but the vac/clean of the computer room will need to wait due to back. I'm not great, I am better than I was before...truck'n on the ??? yellow brick road? maybe I'll find the wizzard :) Cooking up some salmon, tiny colored potatoes and salad for dinner...kind of late, just past 7pm...