In trying to find a 'new normal' with all the different changes to be faced now and in the near future of life, as the old life will never be exactly the same again. Yes, somethings will be the same, I think there will be more appreciation of what I have and despite my health, at least I'm alive which so many are not and that loss will change hundreds of thousands of people around the world.
I wrote the last time about how I should be doing what I'm capable of doing and just ignor the mess, things left done half way or ? that has lead me to the depths of nothingness and numbing out each day with computer and sleep. It's just no way to live my life, and then the result is messing up both my mental and physical health big time.
The past couple of days the weather, yet a bit cold, the sun has been out and I've been in my pj's addiction to the computer full force games, netflex, utube etc. There is a build up of 'stuff' and I wrote t oday to my therapist who God Bless her is doing therapy over the phone. I don't get to talk to her until the 11th, she's told me I can write to her if I want.
Here is my plan to get what I want.
I'm going to try and make myself up a routine for self care previous night put out cloths to wear...dressing, showering, teeth, meds, chachi, eating, fluids, exercise and working outside in my yard.
I already have a routine for my house to keep it clean,
Monday is empty baskets , sheets and laundry washed, dried, folded and put a way, make bed with clean sheets. Dust and vac bed room.
Tues is to clean out ref, clean down all kitchen appliances, counters etc and do floor, put up garbage barrels.
Wed computer room, dust and vac living room, hall.
Friday is a day to complete anything not finished during the week
What I am questioning is the How to make myself follow the routine and Do The Routine to create a better life for myself. A matter of self discipline, pushing myself and not being so soft on myself...or too hard on myself.
If anyone reads this could you please help me by telling me how you push forward to do things I've listed above, I do think everything leads to self care and a more healthful mental health, feeling of accomplishment.
Since I did nothing yesterday, today I'm washing dishes, counters, appliances, ref, empty baskets, garbage and getting barrels up and 'hope' to get my laundry done....To hold myself accountable I'm writing my 'wants' here and sent a copy to my therapist.
I've stopped writing in my journal, and not really doing much on ds to avoid the trap of computer. I'm also thinking about moving computer upstairs and bringing my sewing machine down stairs...a though and I don't want to do too much to set myself up for failure...I do this A Lot!
Hoping where ever you are you have all you need!
Take Good Care, mlro
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