I thought I'd not written for much longer in WDYW. I can write that my life seems at a stand still and I'm struggling each day to do more than plop myself infront of my computer with DS, Netflix, or Utube.
I'm sitting here crying because I've had so many kind remarks to my posts, so very understanding....I live the life of 'breathing tears' each day as my depression is ever presant....depression is No Gift in my life, I do tend to go into my worm hole much more than living life by Doing.
I'm going right back to basic needs because I've become a part of the deep abyss of life in my head. There is a Mountain of steps so far away, yet as life continues, no matter where I am, or you are, we just need to take One Step.
I do know what I'm doing wrong in the morning which starts my day off at a disadvantage. I'm doing what I wrote above. Tomorrow as soon as I get up and take my meds, feed my cat and make coffee I'll be setting a small timer for one hour. Then I can do whatever I want in that one hour, " down to business".
Then I'll shower, get dressed and eat breakfast. With coffee and breakfast I'll be reading from my Al_Anon book which helps me to stay focused on selfcare and takes away some of my stinking thinking.
Then go into my bed room strip the bedding, and get clothing laundry down in the celar to wash, while I fold two weeks of laundry, iron, fold and put away.
The floor and chair I use will be cleared, so I'll damp mop the wooden floor, dust off dresser, night tables, then clean bedding.
By the time my bed room is cleaned, I'm hoping all will be washed and dried and I can start to fold and put away.
If I have a time frame to follow, trying to keep my self focused because that is a Huge Problem for me, being side tracked is so easy. I figure if I'm done with breakfast by 10:30/11 am I will work until 12:30/1pm, just two hours and then stop for lunch, for one hour and again setting my timer...I can do whatever I want as long as I stop when the timer shuts off.
Here I'm at 2:30/3:pm I will continue in my bedroom until completed to my satisfaction...meaning a safe clean haven and feeling good about my accomplishments for the day.
I do hope if anyone joins or readers will help me along my way to a clean house. Then I'll once again focus on decluttering my house. These are my two goals, and What I Want.
Having been around many moons, I have met members from all over...I'm just wondering, if you don't mind sharingWhere are you????
A couple of days ago a bout of depression has smacked me in the face. I've been lying in bed most of the day. Not really sleeping just sort of thinking. When I get up to get for something, I start to cry. Then I have to listen to my son and his grandma's problems which I'm simpathetic to, but makes me feel worse. I don't how much more I can take. I hang on because my medication will...